They used to say we couldn't last forever.

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I had the intention of blogging....but with no head or tail of knowing what to write here. Its been a really productive day with my girls though! *inserts pictures* (I'll upload them when I get them, if I do remember....heh) Sigh, 30 days left to promos. I have exactly a month to mug for subjects that I barely scraped through... though I can feel myself grasping of the techniques and everything! 

I think that "emo/depressed" is my middle name. I've been feeling this way for a few nights now. Don't you guys feel it too? Those few nights when you just think of all the sad things and then listen to sad music and just lie in bed thinking about everything, and you just feel the sadness kicking in and let it overwhelm you till you sink deeper into sadness...and then fall asleep and wake up the next day feeling normal and the cycle repeats all over again. Sigh...but I think I'm feeling this way because of all my stalking...and last night I probably chanced upon the wrong blog and asked the wrong questions today....so i feel this way. But I shouldn't right? Because I asked for it. I knew what I was getting into. Sigh. 

I don't even think there's a reason for this sadness I feel. I'm just giving excuses to allow my heart to give in to all these. Sigh. 

 

You gave me answers I didn't wanna hear today. That I was afraid of. But I asked for it, and it just..brought back a lot of things. I don't know why but I started feeling doubtful...doubtful of everything. Sigh. I wonder if you even know what I'm thinking about, all the things I wish I could tell you, all the things I wish you knew, wish you knew the answers to curing all of these but I know that of all the times I've tried telling you, you'd always end up angry, sad, hurt. And we would end up sitting there in silence, fuming at the complicated questions I always wanted answers to, and the incessant assurance I demanded all the time. I don't know how you stand me sometimes. I can't even stand myself. I feel so insecure on nights like this, and you're not here. I wonder if you know it makes a whole lot of difference. And I wish...I wish sometimes, that I read minds. I'd know what you're thinking of all the time. But I know you tried consoling me, tried telling me how much you love me. And that...I guess that's enough.

Florence Lee

Florence Lee

Amour Infinito ∞
Did I mention how absolutely how eccentric I can get?
Oh, and people call me Flo (:

I believe that love's the strongest thing in this world, and that true love does exist. We just gotta find it. And I think I already did.

& Someday, I'm gonna be living in Paris.

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