Surreal Pain.
"If you ever love someone this much, this hard, this long, it'll stay with you forever. Because it's what happens once in a lifetime."
Have you ever felt a moderate amount of pain in your life that, after you pick yourself up, you build up these protective walls around you and you're on guard with everybody else and anybody? This is exactly how I feel. I feel so protective of myself, with the words people say, and the feelings I feel each time something drastic happens. It's like I never want to step in to that dark zone of my life ever again. I know what it's like to fall down, and now that it took me a year to climb back up, it's like I'm stepping on the same stones and hanging on the ledge.
Trust, begets trust. Does it really? I don't know how it works or how it goes about, but it seems like the more you trust someone, the harder you fall when everything falls apart. But I really did trust someone with my entire heart, and then it shattered in to a million pieces in my world. And now, I don't even know what trust really means, and if I really do trust anybody. It seems like things have changed so much. Pain, probably does that to people.
But I guess, love is the solution for everything after all. Trust gains back in years, but falls within seconds of sheer stupidity. And I know now that I've learnt my lesson, that if you wanna trust a person with your life, it has to be someone you love till the ends of the Earth.