New Year's Eve.

It seems like only yesterday that I started this whole new year. But right now, it's another new year. Time's passing so fast and I don't know what to say this is. Usually every New Year's Eve, I'd be cooped up at home and watching the countdown on tv, and then going to sleep immediately afterwards due to my parents' hectic and untimely work schedule, we wouldn't be able to countdown or go to parties to celebrate a New Year. So yeah, and I'm probably guessing, this year would be the same. 

I'd want to do something different for the year, but I don't know what. I've thought of making resolutions, but meh, I always end up doing something else instead. I mean, besides, what's in it for me now other than anticipating for my results and end up going to some school which most probably I wouldn't like, (well, if my results are utterly...speechless) and this has happened for every major exam so I'm guessing this time it wouldn't be different. I have tried convincing myself that it would, that I've worked hard enough for it to make a difference to a point where I wouldn't regret on how much I should have worked more and lament on and on about my results, but honestly, I'm sure it'd just happen again. Though there's this sparkle of hope inside me all the time that I wish that it would be different. 

I've never spent New Year's Eve with anyone else before. Not my friends, boyfriend if i have/had one. But I'm okay with it, and I tend to keep it this way till a special day :) Maybe it'd make a difference then. Heh. I hope the new year's gonna be good cause it seems like I've got my schedule packed for it, well, at least for school. Maybe I should make resolutions after all, haha. It kinda sets my mind onto where I wanna go, and what I wanna do. And I'm turning 17 next year, what could be better, eh?Okay, so here goes:

1. Lose some weight. 

I've been wanting to get my ND body since the start of watching The Vampire Diaries, but this year has been all about studying, the couch and more studying and no time for trainings or gym. So yes, I would gladly like my body to revert back to its normal and slim shape like it was before the start of this year (: Heh, and yeappppp. And probably my boobs will kinda expand on its own :} hehehe. 

2. Study and work harder for the things that I want.

I've said this since pre-school and I don't think I've ever managed to accomplish this yet. Heh, so I hope I would be determined enough this year to accomplish this resolution!! (: And no, I've never ever worked hard for the things I want bad enough, I just let it slip away, which is pity really. Otherwise,i could have done better in my life than be this sloth. Mmm. 

3. Be a good daughter.

I think I've managed to be a little of this this year! I've not thrown tantrums since forever and not moaned or lamented about anything. Heh, I merely just pouted. Well, I think it's because there's no opportunities for me to get angry yet. So...next year I'll be a better daughter!!

4. No more lies, be honest. 

I've tried doing this this year too, but it seems like I failed. Each time I try, it seems to fail. Sigh, is it so hard to just be honest? I promise I'll try harder. 

5. Be a good girlfriend. 

I wanna be a good girlfriend, to my girlfriends, all my friends and most importantly, him. Although we're not official, I promise I'll do everything I can to cheer you up when you're down, to pick you up when you fall, to be there to listen whenever life isn't fair. And to be a really good friend to all of my friends. 

6. No more mistakes, not entirely, blindly. 

I don't wanna make anymore mistakes that are blunt, blind and I wanna be more me.

7. Be happy, truly. 

I wanna find my true self again, to be happy, truly happy. The years I've spend in Secondary School had been horribly depressing, and sometimes to my dismay, I think I have depression, haha. But I've overcame that and yes, I'm gonna find my true self again, the one that people fell in love with :) 

8. Never give up. 

I never gave up when I was mugging for the finals this year, and I won't wanna give up in time of any difficult times. And from what I see, next year is gonna be a real tedious and hard year ): So i won't give up!! 

9. Be that "hot" girl classified from K.Lee's dictionary :}

I've been trying to be the girl that K.Lee classified as hot. Pretty, smart, hot and good. But I don't think I'll ever be able to do it. Sigh. But I'll keep trying, I'll be that girl one day :) 

10. Love, right.

I've always loved for the wrong reasons. So I hope after everything I've learned before for the past four years, I'll be able to look past everything and forgive and forget and start a new part of my life right again. And to love you right, for all the right reasons. 

 

Meh, there goes my New Year's resolutions!! (: Heh, and hopefully I'll be able to keep these 10 resolutions. Sigh. 2012 babbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbyyyyyyyyy <3 <3 Bring it! 

Florence Lee

Florence Lee

Amour Infinito ∞
Did I mention how absolutely how eccentric I can get?
Oh, and people call me Flo (:

I believe that love's the strongest thing in this world, and that true love does exist. We just gotta find it. And I think I already did.

& Someday, I'm gonna be living in Paris.

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