My heart will go on.

Hello there :) If there are any loyal readers, but I honestly doubt that 'cause my blog posts are always so inconsistent. School has been really hectic, and I've been constantly questioning my capabilities of surviving through the first year of JC successfully ): Ugh, so afraid that I might retain and then just die gosh. But I promise I'll try my best and do everything I can to make sure that I do survive it and finally graduate and graduate!! Honestly can't wait for that part of my life to start 'cause I know that's when I'm a little closer in being with you every single day. 

Things have been good with B. Hehe, we're like so cute right now :B I feel like a little princess that he pampers and he just powers me up for everything, and do the littel things that makes me smile and say all the right things that touch the right places for me to feel alright whenever things go wrong. Sometimes I miss him so much, my heart hurts. It just feels empty and hollow like something is missing and sigh, I can't stop thinking about the fact that his internship would be 6 bloody months even though its two years away. I don't know how I'd survive through that ): ): So afraid to lose everything at one shot. 

Hot

Heh, I can feel this change in him though. This..tick. Something's so right about him. Heh, I don't know if this change was sudden or that it has been there for awhile now and it just took a little longer for me to realise, but I guess this is the best part of him that I bring out. Its like he understands all the little things I want right now and he listens to all my bitching and nonsense and asks me how my day was and everything that I crap about. Heh, and he actually makes the effort to answer me and talk to me about it which is so sweet of him. Heh. I can feel him opening up more to me now, and telling more stuff that he usually did before on his own. I can feel that invisibility line drawn way behind us and I'm glad that we've moved past that barrier. But this would mean sometime soon, there would be another one....coming our way sigh. 

Stef

These few days I've been picturing all these tiny scenes in my head of what it would be like next time in the near future when we're together. And I just can't stop thinking about them. I know, my friends all think I'm crazy to want to get married and have kids and stuff, but don't you think you can actually get married and then start living your life with someone you actually love, instead of living your life first and then getting married? There's no way out of it, just the phases in life that we choose to go through first. Oh well, so enough of that. I just know right now how much I love him and I'm never ever gonna give up on us even when everything seems dim and hopeless because that's what love is about isn't it? You don't give up on the people you love. 

 

Anyway, THE JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!!!! Gosh, I've been waiting for it since forever. Since the first day of my JC life. Haha, but it's not really a holiday 'cause the first week is occupied with lessons and the rest of the weeks are needed to be used to study for the exams which are immediately after ): And then B's gonna be going overseas on the last week of the holidays which is so upsetting 'cause he's gonna be gone for a week sigh and I'm gonna be lame and emo all day and stuff like that ): But I'm looking forward to the days that we can finally go shop together, and go to different places to take crazy photos and eat and shop and have so much fun together!!!! I swear I'm deprived of shopping so damn much ): I haven't done it since.....I don't know when ): Hopefully daddy would gimme some moneh hehehehehe :B That's so mean of me but my heart just feels....so deprived ugh. 

Clothes

Look at these clothes gosh. I hope my future home would have a walk-in wardrobe like this. Hehe. Crazy me, but I've always been picturing my future home like the house in the movie "Mr and Mrs. Smith" (I think that's the name of the movie, oh you get the idea) heh, its so damn cool. And it'll be a tiny little apartment so it feels warm and loving. Okay can, I should stop fantasising. 

Brace

Ohgosh, I have a thing for bracelets y'knw ): And soya bean. I've been drinking it every single day and I've drank like four cups today oh gosh but it's so nice and addictive. Heheh especially Vitasoy and LaoBan Tauhuey!!! Anyway, the bracelets in the picture are so nice right ! Especially the one with the infinity sign, ohmygosh so cute. I wanna buy all the bracelets and wear on my tiny skinny scrawny wrist :D heheh really needa go shopping soon ): 

Pretty

Anyway, these few days I've been feeling so unconfident of my looks because I've been seeing pretty girls and stalking some. Hehehehe I feel like a perv. But I've been complaining and whining so much to B. about my looks and he's been relentlessly telling my how pretty I am but somehow I doubt him. Hehehe. Like the saying goes "Compliments make you uncomfortable because you don't believe in yourself." But I like how it feels when people compliment me, its just that I wouldn't believe that ): That's so bad. Heh, and I've been asking him if I look pretty everyday and all sorts of silly question that would annoy the hell outta a guy but he's been so sweet and patient with me hehe, I feel like a lil girl gosh. But I really have no confidence in myself although I might seem like it (its so hard to pull off pfft) Haha, but I'm trying my best!!

Camp
Ohyes, B. and I are supposed to have plans for camping hehe. Hopefully we have time!!! Really hope we have time cause its been ages since we spent forever with each other hehe :B Camping's been really fun and I'd do it all over and over and over again :) Hehe. Alright...I shall....
Pret

Sigh....still thinking about this in my mind....Heheh. I really wish for this ): to be like one of those flawless girls man. Okay I gotta stop being silly. 

 

 

Stay

Baby, I know these few days have been tough on you, with everything that's been going on in your school and at home. But I meant what I said today, when I said that I'd be with you through it all. Through rain and shine, I will be here, no matter what. I won't leave anymore, I'm done doing that. We're both done trying to play games and baby...it's been so long and we're already settling down with each other...at least deciding to in the near future. It already feels like we're a real couple out there in the real world, just with different expectations and responsibilities and roles right now. Baby, have a little faith. At least in me. You know you can do this. You can. I've seen all the things that you've done and I know you can do it. Maybe they just haven't realised it yet, but baby, you'll shine out soon. Its just the beginning and things would fall into place soon enough, okay? Remember, you'll always have me and iloveyousomuch. You remember that, and we'll keep our promise at travelling around the world and everything else that's waiting on us, okay? Iloveyou.

World

With love, 

xoxo. 

Florence Lee

Florence Lee

Amour Infinito ∞
Did I mention how absolutely how eccentric I can get?
Oh, and people call me Flo (:

I believe that love's the strongest thing in this world, and that true love does exist. We just gotta find it. And I think I already did.

& Someday, I'm gonna be living in Paris.

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