It feels like it was just yesterday.
Sigh, and then there's this problem I have with myself. Confidence. I know it derives from one's true self, and whether you choose to emit it or not, its up to you. But somehow, no matter how badly I want to show or at least pretend that I do have it, somehow I can't even muster a little of it up. Which is considered really bad because confidence is really what you need to survive in this harsh reality. People can be so....cruel and harsh these days.
And also last but not least, and also the most importantly, the distance. The distance placed between you and me that is driving us practically crazy and apart. Not to mention the spark of all the insecurities and doubts and arguments, that we're both too tired to handle. Le sigh. But I really hate this dark side of us, and I really hope that things would get lighter and easier soon enough. Have got to have faith, but sometimes I just lose it.
"Don't waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away. "
But you know, you're the one thing that I won't give up on. You're the one thing that I would keep fighting for. Because I've never fought for anything else in my life for this long, and this hard. And if this is the one thing that needs me to fight for to survive, even if it means taking my life, I'd do it. Because of everything we've been through, I think I've found a little shade of what true love means and seem like.
