Etched.
Perfect candid moments like this. Its hard to forget.
And crazy shots like that. You'll never forget these. With friends like that, could you ever ask for more?
But love. That's something so much more. Something that's etched deeply in your heart. Something you won't ever forget.
This was from weeks ago. Heh, look at us then. So crazy and in love. This was taken at Changi Beach, where you, me and your dad spent the night walking throughout and it was crazy to the part we ran on the beaches, we took so many photos of the boats on shore, and the ants crawling onto us and we jumped like mad men trying to get them off and the part where we all held hands and walked through the night back to the car. I'd never forget that.
But tonight, it meant something more. Something that I never thought I'd feel again...so strongly. Burning with passion. I fell in love with you all over again tonight. We were spent from the day due to our hectic schedules, but when we saw each other, it felt like an adrenaline rush again. From the gate of your school, I just felt like jumping onto you when I saw you. That smile on your face, and that sweep-look you always give me when you see me, I'd never forget that. I'd never forget these memories if it meant for me to take away. I'm so sure they're so deeply etched cause it means so much to me. I'd never forget the crazy long talks we have and the way we laugh along with the wind. Just like tonight, when we took crazy long night walks just to get to bus stops. The way you told me about your whacked dream. The way we were laughing, swept by the wind. The way we talked about our kids, the house, the wedding and the things we were gonna do to prepare ourselves before the next 8 years. The way we talked about how successful we wanna be for our lives to be that perfect. The way you were willing to sacrifice just anything for me. The way you'd go through hell just to give me that one perfect ideal life in the future. It seemed like you ignited something in me.
We moved on in the night. I absolutely love taking bus rides with you 'cause you'd bombard me with silly cute questions you knew the answers to. Haha, and the way you'd put your arms around me, pulling me close. The way you'd tell me how beautiful I looked, over and over again, and whispering those "iloveyous" in my ear. You always never failed to get my heart racing, my body tingling. The way you looked at me as though I was an angel, fallen from above. The way you're so protective over me.
I know its been ±4 years. And I know how long its been. But these things....I never fail to feel them as though it was all over back to day 1 again. And tonight, you asked me a question. That got me moving. That got me thinking. You said:
"Baby, what do you think is the thing that makes us so different from other couples? Have you ever wondered why, we're so different, so much closer?"
And the first thing that came to my mind was, "Isn't every couple supposed to be different?"
And when I said that, you said "Different in the sense that we're too close, so much closer."
In the end you said, "I think its because we've been through the same amount of pain and the same amount of things...we went through the same things together...and maybe that's why we understand each other so much, so much closer."
And that gave my heart a closure to an answer that I've always wanted to ask you: "Am I different from all the other girls?"
Because you told me how different I was after that, from other girls and how I made you feel. Never failing to remind me how much I meant to you. And then, I felt it. That moment. That part of me that yearned for us to finally be together so badly. And no matter how many times we whine to each other about not being able to be together all day long, we knew that one day we'd make it happen.
We're 17. Maybe to people, we seem young. Immature. Maybe to them we haven't been through a lot of things, haven't seen enough of the world to know the things that might change us. I'm only 17. But I sure as hell know that if there's one thing that stays true after all of this, one thing that stays true in this world even when the times change, it's this. Our love.


