Die in your arms.

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Its been exactly three days. And I miss you so bad. But I can do this. I have so many many things to tell you and I honestly just can't wait till you come home. My head's in the clouds and my heart's feeling so heavy. One week > One month > Six months. Babe, I have no confidence that i can do the last two parts. Sigh. Its so long and things happen overtime....What if we're just talking normally one day, and everything just ends like that? No quarrels, nothing but just mutally we know deep down its over....? What would I do without you, honestly? I've been so reliant on you being here for the past few years, I honestly wouldn't know what to do. I was talking about this with Gabby today, and I felt deep down that I really honestly wouldn't know what to do when that happens. Because we've been together for so long I don't even know how to stop loving you. You're the biggest part of me in my life I know and if I lose that part of my life....I don't know. 

I'm so scared whenever I hear those couples who didn't make it due to long-distance. And that they just broke it off one day because they knew they weren't able to make it. And I'm so afraid that we're gonna be the same. I know love has no boundaries and that no time or distance can break it if its strong. But are we that strong? I mean, it is reality after all....and i don't know...I'm just so scared, but I'm trying not to think about it and just hope with all my heart that we'd be able to get through them. I'm taking a day at a pace and praying and hoping everyday that we would make it. We will, I must believe. I won't give up, and I'm sure you wouldn't too.

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I miss you so much darling. My math paper was today but I think I kinda screwed it up cause I panicked and was worried there wasn't enough time for me to finish. Heh, I kinda miss you being here telling me everything's gonna be alright and that I'll be fine. And all of your "I told you so". 

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The night's gonna fall soon, and I know that's when my mind starts to flash every memory of us. Its like a timed alarm, whenever I just got into bed and lie there, everything starts and it makes me miss you so bad. And sometimes it gets so bad my heart starts to hurt and then I'd stare at my phone hoping for a miracle. I promised you I'd be strong for you for the next few years or so and I'm sorry that I can't be that strong girl sometimes baby. And you voice, along with all of the things you've pictured for us and the promises keeps repeating like a recorder in my mind and it just gives me the motivation and drive to go on. Sigh, I love you so much I don't think my heart's able to handle it hahahaha k this sounds exaggerating but you get the point. 

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4 more days, I can do this :) The future awaits. I've always loved how you shut me up whenever I tell you how I'm afraid we wouldn't be able to make it. Heh. And then you'd just skip right to the part where we have a house, a job and kids and live our lives. And I can't wait to start living that part of my life. We can do this. And its just like we planned right baby? Go to university, get a job, (date for 8 years), get married, tour the world, buy a house, a car and then have kids. It'll be like this baby, and i won't give up. I love you, forever and always. 

With love, 

xoxo. 

Florence Lee

Florence Lee

Amour Infinito ∞
Did I mention how absolutely how eccentric I can get?
Oh, and people call me Flo (:

I believe that love's the strongest thing in this world, and that true love does exist. We just gotta find it. And I think I already did.

& Someday, I'm gonna be living in Paris.

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