It ain't gonna be easy, but it'll be worth it.
We're close to 50 months. Although its not really there, its about there. And darling, we've been together for so long, and been through so many things, thick and thin, I'm starting to think we're actually already married in a way. In some sort of mentality. Haha, and that we're a really really old couple. Sometimes I get those insecurities of whether you'd get sick of me when I'm old, and everything else. Or if someone better might just come along and take whatever that's left of me in your heart. But I know our love is strong, and that it'll stand strong. So many times, we haven't fall, though we wavered, I believe we can make it through.
Its already May right now, this year. The year's going so fast, and I'm already almost halfway through JC life. And you're halfway through your Poly life, and both our lives seem to be getting more and more hectic and having lesser time to spend with each other. I used to think it was the lust that mattered between us because I used to think that I wasn't good enough and that was the only thing enough to make you stay. But that was then. I know now that it's such a unhealthy mindset to not love yourself or feel inferior or not feel good of yourself. I'm proud of who I am, and I should be. Now I know that, despite the distances kept between us, the long hours we spend away from each other and with more to come, trust and love pays a long way. And I don't know what I'd be like when you're away for your internships, but hopefully I'd survive. Sigh. So worried.
I'm trying not to think of that now. Cause we're grabbing at every single chance that we have to meet and to study together and make the best use of time. Baby, I don't know how long we can last, and if the fates allows us to, but I promise I'd do anything to maintain this. Cause I know you will too. And reading this or not, I know you feel the same way as I do. And that way is something that no one else can understand. Its like a link between us, a sire, and its unbreakable. And I know even though we're spending all our time at different places, doing different things, trying to accomplish what the goals of our lives are, we're both thinking about the same thing at the finishing line. That one day where everything would settle down, and where we can finally be by each other's side. It's a long way to go, sure. But I'm sure we'd keep the faith to do this. We can do this. Its always been like this, and things will get better. All we gotta do is to have love in place within our hearts and distance won't ever be a problem as long as two hearts are loyal to each other. Iloveyou darling, and may the odds ever be in our favour.

